Perched

On the edge of my seat. Is watching the Election map fill in on NPR likely to cause a brain aneurysm? I update it every few seconds to see the numbers add up. The suspense is killing me. I can't concentrate on anything else. Transfixed. Feel like the results of this election will be very revealing concerning which states I could never comfortably live in. Yes, politics are very important to me. At some point I'm going to have to tear myself away from this and pretend to do something else.

And not think about all those weird comments I happened to read on different forums about the candidates. I broke my rule of not reading news and as a consequence I was swiftly caught up in reading all of the sites. Yes, ALL OF THEM. CNN, NPR, FOX (totally lame), The Washington Post, etc. etc. There are threads of conversations that I don't even believe can be real where people are accusing Obama of being Islamic and preparing to take over the world. Dudes, that's what I think about Mormons. Except that I don't really think that. I don't feel that threatened by Mormons. I don't feel threatened at all by Islam. There are plenty of American citizens who are practicing Muslims and are patriotic and good people.

I'm so embarrassed for all the people who are questioning Obamas place of birth as though it's the easiest thing in the world to pretend to be born in the states when really you were born in Africa. For Christ's sake!!! I'm amazed by people who question his ability to run this country based on the fact that he hasn't gone to war and killed people. Killing people in a military operation doesn't make you more qualified to run a country. Sometimes I think it twists people up more than it makes them wise or strong or a hero. Whatever.

This is stream of consciousness writing, not an organized post. I'm just writing what comes to mind.

The truth is, I've hardly given any thought to the fact that he's half black. It just dawned on me today, fully, what a victory it would be for our country's civil rights movement of the 1960's to finally see an African American become president. It's not that I haven't noticed, because that would mean I need a whole different banquet of medications than I do...it's just that in my mind it's just a descriptor, not a fact with any moral value attached to it. His skin is darker than mine. Jennifer Aniston's skin is darker than mine too. George Hamilton's skin absolutely defies description. Definitely darker than mine. What does it signify?

Well, naturally dark skinned people obviously possess qualities that light skinned people covet. At least Obama's skin is his own natural pigmentation. Poor George has kind of left the charts in the orange skin category.

I can't access the Interactive Election Map on NPR and it's making me crazy. Did they cut me off on purpose?