Our Ruination Has Been Recorded
Do you all remember how I alluded to other things going on with us that I couldn't discuss? Today our financial ruin was finally recorded. We realized in January that we had no options left. We tried to refinance to pay down our debts but couldn't because our debt to loan ratio was already too high. We tried talking to our banks but they had no desire to negotiate better rates on our cards or to change our mortgages. Yes, I said mortgages because we still had the other house that we couldn't sell and although we had it rented for 6 months, it didn't cover the property taxes which came due in January. So we began the process of filing chapter 7.
It wasn't something we were thrilled to do nor was it a decision we made quickly or lightly. We had already spent months trying to figure out how best to deal with our rapidly deteriorating situation. We have never been late payers on mortgages or credit cards. Our credit has been A+ for years. That's better than most Americans can boast. But in the past year of having to decide whether to pay the doctor or the mortgage, whether to pay the mortgage on the house we're living in or the one we can't get rid of...our credit was going to start dropping points anyway. We could see by January that we could either keep trying to patch the dam while ruining our credit, never being able to pay down our debt, not be able to afford food and clothes, and lose not one but both our houses...
Or we could file for bankruptcy, actually clear the debt, and have shitty credit but get there with a lot less struggle and reduce our chances of dying from heart attacks. We chose bankruptcy over slow death. It isn't like we're rich people asking for a bailout. We are people who can't afford medical insurance, going to the dentist, or the proper mental care we need. We are already living a modest life and as you know, every couple of weeks we completely hit the wall before payday and try not to have any needs for a few days.
Philip did most of the paperwork which was extensive. You're wondering about the McDonald's picture, aren't you? Today was not only the first time since I was married that I had to enter a courthouse but it has been over 20 years since I have stepped foot in a McDonald's, but we had to make a bathroom emergency stop and since there was no gas station we opted for the great American fall from culinary grace to bail us out of our bathroom needs. Seems so appropriate to eat a snack from the greatest icon of our degraded American culture on the same day we go to have our ruination recorded in the government court.
Perhaps many of you will think that this is a grave day. An event to be sorry about and to regret. We don't feel this way. We have never taken advantage of our country or our government. We've never dodged taxes and rarely even complained about having to pay them. We vote, we join peace marches, we sign petitions, we call our senators and generally take part in being part of our country. But today we took our turn asking our country to pay us back by relieving us of a situation we didn't knowingly jump into. Circumstance towed us under and we asked for our personal bailout.
We think it's fair. We are not ashamed. We think it's reason to celebrate.
For as much as people in this country like to wave their flags and brag about our freedoms, I have seen a lot less of this country's greatness than I'd like to in my lifetime. This country has been taking money from me my whole working life supposedly for my "retirement" but then the government has gone and spent it so that I'll benefit very little from that money they took and will probably never be able to retire. I have paid a lot of money into unemployment funds that I have never benefited from because I've been a good enough employee (so far) that I have never been fired. Every time I have turned to my government for assistance of any kind I never qualify for one convenient reason or another. I never qualify for anything. I'm not crazy enough, or sick enough, or poor enough, or young enough, or old enough to receive any benefits of any kind that I myself have paid my own money into for others to make use of.
So my feeling is one of gratefulness that I have received the benefit of a clean slate from my country today. Thanks!
Now, if one person mentions how rich Americans are and how lucky and how we're so much better off than everyone else and....I will slug you. I will reach through this computer and I will sock you in the jaw as hard as I can because being broke in America sucks.
We think it's fair. We are not ashamed. We think it's reason to celebrate.
For as much as people in this country like to wave their flags and brag about our freedoms, I have seen a lot less of this country's greatness than I'd like to in my lifetime. This country has been taking money from me my whole working life supposedly for my "retirement" but then the government has gone and spent it so that I'll benefit very little from that money they took and will probably never be able to retire. I have paid a lot of money into unemployment funds that I have never benefited from because I've been a good enough employee (so far) that I have never been fired. Every time I have turned to my government for assistance of any kind I never qualify for one convenient reason or another. I never qualify for anything. I'm not crazy enough, or sick enough, or poor enough, or young enough, or old enough to receive any benefits of any kind that I myself have paid my own money into for others to make use of.
So my feeling is one of gratefulness that I have received the benefit of a clean slate from my country today. Thanks!
Now, if one person mentions how rich Americans are and how lucky and how we're so much better off than everyone else and....I will slug you. I will reach through this computer and I will sock you in the jaw as hard as I can because being broke in America sucks.
Being broke in America the way we've been broke is not like being rich everywhere else in the world. So don't even say it.
Today we are officially just another bankrupt American family.

Comments (7)
I don't feel too badly for credit card companies. They get to write off bad debt, so it's not like it's a total loss for them.
Also, you can't get unemployment if you've been fired, only if you've been laid-off.
I agree with you about being broke in America. I think that, in general, America is a much wealthier country than many others, but for an individual to be broke here it's much harder than in other countries. We have basic things that are required here that are very costly such as many types of insurance, some type of vehicle (in many, many cases public transit and bikes aren't always options), etc. L. and I have had this conversation many times. It sucks to be broke, but I think it really sucks to be broke in the USA.
Posted by Lisa | July 15, 2009 5:31 PM
Posted on July 15, 2009 17:31
I used to be broke in East Texas, that was hard. I got some food from a food bank once, and they had the balls to give me two boxes of cereal. No milk. Awesome. That's a meal to look forward to. What I'm trying to say, without pity, is- you're right, broke sucks, I'm sorry.
Posted by estes | July 15, 2009 5:49 PM
Posted on July 15, 2009 17:49
Congratulations. It'll be nice to not feel so much like you are being crushed under the grinding heel of Fate. Good decision.
Posted by Blaize | July 15, 2009 6:31 PM
Posted on July 15, 2009 18:31
I'm so glad you choose this vs. stress related health problems...your livelihood is worth so much more! I'm celebrating with you in spirit, an end to the crap and a future full of life!
Posted by Kathy | July 15, 2009 8:47 PM
Posted on July 15, 2009 20:47
I am sure this will take a huge weight off of you guys. Cheers!
Posted by Tonia | July 16, 2009 9:47 PM
Posted on July 16, 2009 21:47
I've been quite behind in my blog reading and so am late hearing your bad news. I'm sorry that it's come to this. What happens next? Are you going to lose the new house...or does this make it possible for you to keep it? Hope it's the latter.
Posted by mss @ Words Into Bytes | July 20, 2009 9:44 PM
Posted on July 20, 2009 21:44
I'm sorry - I hope it is the fresh start you need.
Posted by magpie | July 21, 2009 9:45 AM
Posted on July 21, 2009 09:45